When you ask questions like, “Why am I not happy yet?” it is a rejection of where you are. It’s a refusal and diminishing of where you are now. It’s “I don’t want to be here. I want to be there.”
So, how will you know when you’re “there?"
Are there thoughts you should be thinking when you’re “there?” Are there feelings you should be feeling when you’re “there?” Are there sensations you should be having when you’re “there?” Will the thoughts, feelings and sensations you’re having now be absent when you’re “there?”
Any ideas of what you should or should not be thinking, feeling and sensing will keep you spellbound by an imagined future eternally striving for some longed-for experience that isn’t happening now. It keeps you constantly disappointed by the perceived poverty of the present moment deficient in the things that don’t match the image of your ideal destination. You become seduced by a second-hand indirect image of life that can only ever exist in your mind while your attention is turned toward a captivating promise of what could be “there.”
Can you sense the subtle self-aggression in questions like, “Why am I still here? Why haven't I found happiness yet?"
Rather than remain transfixed by some day, can you be curious about what is here now? Can you be still, here, among all the thoughts, all the feelings and all the sensations just for this moment? Even the ones you don’t like? Can you be here if only for a moment?
For there is only ever this moment, one moment. What bounty might be available in participation with this present moment that the mind cannot know with its longing to be “there?”
Perhaps to be here in this moment, where there is space enough for everything and all of you to exist, will be the moment you discover the vastness of your true nature, and it’s warm and welcoming embrace that is always, already here.